Secrets....

I have secrets...and I dread to take them to my grave...a place in me is so empty because I dont have you. the out-let to my life..I could share anything with you, and everything with you...without being judged..you accepted me with understanding, and open arms, when I felt afraid, it was you that would shield me from harm...
Im screaming and kicking like a baby...holding on as tight as I can to my past...while my present is pulling me to a future unknown. And surrounded by new people in my life...I still feel so alone. Your heart is my only home..no matter where I may rome...I want to shout your name to the world...and be clear so that they all may hear...but I fear rejection. But I fear suffering and pain, because the hurt you caused already left a stain...I have secrets...Im afraid to take them to my grave...these things keep bottled in only to consume my insides...what ever shall I do?