can you handle that?

And the pain is ever lasting, when ever I try to do something nice, and it doesnt work out.
and the pain stabs like a knife, when you're not here by my side, or when you can't call me at night, and the frustration grows, because I couldnt tell you---but only GOD knows...where you could be at and what you're doing. And its not that I don't trust you. I just don't trust the world around you; and its not just you...because we share this world..you see?

I don't get it. I use to feel impowered. I felt security in not giving out my heart, and allowing these curtains to fall. But the thing people lack to see most of all...is that giving you my heart, was the bravest thing I've ever done. I know I won't break my own heart, but I put enough faith, and trust in you, to hope & pray that you'll protect my heart the same way I did. And if you allow it---I can do the same for you. But see, the pain will too haunt you..and can you handle that?