Im waiting....

Im waiting for you. I've been here since long ago. Even when you left me with nothing to show. I was still here. And though I do not stand alone, I've got someone by my side...Im still here for you, Im still ride or die.
I wait, silently for you to take charge. You know what it takes to be a man. All you have to do now is take full command. Don't you understand? Im the damzel in distress, and if you can't take me at my worst...you dont deserve me at my best..and this situation that Im in...is just a test...to see if you're willing and able, to take what is so rightfully yours. You always claim its me you adore...but the feelings you're showing...makes me feel like Ive been ignored. I need you to know that Im waiting. I wish I could be up front and blunt...but honey, Im the prey...and you're on the hunt. Its always been that way...why should it change? My love for you has always been the same. Dont take this as a rejection to letting you in...because my heart is open baby...Im waiting...and when you're ready, you can be assured that Im ready to recieve you. Be mine again...because baby...Im waiting.

Secrets....

I have secrets...and I dread to take them to my grave...a place in me is so empty because I dont have you. the out-let to my life..I could share anything with you, and everything with you...without being judged..you accepted me with understanding, and open arms, when I felt afraid, it was you that would shield me from harm...
Im screaming and kicking like a baby...holding on as tight as I can to my past...while my present is pulling me to a future unknown. And surrounded by new people in my life...I still feel so alone. Your heart is my only home..no matter where I may rome...I want to shout your name to the world...and be clear so that they all may hear...but I fear rejection. But I fear suffering and pain, because the hurt you caused already left a stain...I have secrets...Im afraid to take them to my grave...these things keep bottled in only to consume my insides...what ever shall I do?