here we go again

wow. I dont know how I get myself into these situations. Thinking that I won't get my feelings hurt. even the sweetest guys have a sour side to them. Its not in my interest or his.. for me to mention what it is. I guess others would/could say that it could be worse.. but I dont even want to accept whats been presented to me. I just cant seem to get a break from bad news...or news that makes me uncomfortable. Maybe I need to just lay extremely low for a while. I dont know what to do anymore, what to feel anymore, what to express anymore. but its ALWAYS something.. and I need a release. I dont want to come off as depressed.. but I cant help it. Its just always something. I am going to try really hard.. to just lay low. I want to be socially dead. Im drinkin this wine. and going to sleep. goodnight.